In last month's Romantic Times I saw where there was a challenge or rather a writing contest being jointed held and judged by Kensington/Brava and RT. They were looking for novellas in the romance genre and any subgenre of romance from 15,000-20,000 words. As anyone who is a regular reader of my blog knows I wrestle with Bipolar Disorder and often go through serious swings of high manic energy where I can create a massive amount and true lows where I can be unproductive and be borderline suicidal.
This last month or two has been a true struggle, leading to my lowest of lows this morning where I seriously considered walking away from writing altogether. I received some comments from people in the industry which well intentioned or not have seriously crippled my growth as a writer and what I want to accomplish in my life. When I woke up this morning I felt flat, depressed, and unmoved. When I announced to my best friend, screenwriting partner, and room mate I no longer wanted to be a writer she told me I needed to call the doctor about my medicine.
She also told me I needed to finish the book I had started, I needed to finish it. When I asked her why she told me she wanted to know how it ended. I wasn't sure if I could. I'm still not. I know I'm a writer and when I checked my email box I'd received a best in Romance Books Blog Award. That lifted my spirits and it made me want to open that 6000 word document up and made me decide to put a deadline on myself and churn out the words I needed to in order to reach 15,000 words. Maybe it will suck but I need something to shine the light at the end of the tunnel my illness has me trapped in.
So here it is, me with 9,000 words to churn out along with a synopsis and a cover letter before tomorrow night at 11:59 and sent off to Kensington/Brava before the clock strikes twelve. Checkout my shiny new award and new blog http://amyssportschatter.blogspot.com/. And you can find details on the contest at RT's website and Kensington's website. Wish me luck and good luck to everyone out there.