Sunday, May 15, 2011

Change May Be Good But...

Have you ever heard someone say change is good? I don't know about good but it sure as hell beats the alternative lol. Change is good, but it's not easy. And even though it wasn't intended to be it often tears down the old to make way for the new.

I've been privvy to a lot of change since February. Much of it good. Unfortunately I'm experiencing some growing pains too. If I wanted to make the final leap to self-published I've gotten some signals that this was something I was ready for but would be swimming upstream to some degree on and those signals were less than well, comfortable ones.

This last week there's been a lot of tearing down of the old to make way for the new in my life and right now I just feel a little bit raw from it all. I realize sadly, my need to please, and need to be validated may be quite normal in the grand scheme of things but can be swords worked and manipulated against me too.

Self-publishing is a gutsy move. And I plan on publishing audio versions of my stories as well. I find the only person or people in this world I can depend on in this crazy world are my friends (you know who you are;).  And while I enjoy being contracted for publication even that has its pitfalls if one is not careful. Although my current house MuseItUp is a perfectly wonderful place. I am not speaking of you.

Like I said just feeling a bit raw from life this week. If you are too be sure to join me in a bowl of Rocky Road ice cream pull the shades and hide from the world for the day. Sometimes it's good just to hide for a little while.

5 comments:

Paty Jager said...

Amy, I know exactly what you're saying. I'm on the same precipice of change and wondering what the heck I'm doing one minute and then thinking this is the best for my writing.

anthony stemke said...

Change isn't always good, I guess it depends on how you adapt to it that counts. I prefer "Moose Tracks" or "Oreo" ice cream cm.

marrwichil said...

I could relate to every word. Right up to and past the bowl of Rocky Road ice cream. My family has been through a lot of changes in the past four years and it has taken me away from my writing. Just trying to dip my toe back in the waters to see what direction I should go to next. Enjoyed your blog.

Sharon Sullivan-Craver said...

Been there and know exactly how you feel. But you'll find you have that inner strength that will come to you just when you need it. I am not published as yet, but someday. And as Anthony said change isn't always good, but we have to see the positive in it. And thanks for the bowl of ice cream..!!

Janice said...

Change can be hard. And I know about that raw feeling. All I can really tell you is "this too shall pass." That one phrase has got me through a lot of raw moments.

I like plain old chocolate ice cream. :)