Friday, July 1, 2011

Getting Back On The Horse

Sometimes it's easy to forget why we blog. Everyone is different. I blog to deliver information and express myself. So hear recently I haven't been living up to my end of the bargain. To be honest I've been kind of burned out and struggling with my mood stability.

I don't really wish that on anyone. Sometimes it seems like I've been given a choice. Numbness of chaos. And I don't really care for either choice. The chaos makes it impossible to focus on what it is I'd like to write about and the numbness makes it seem like I can't access the emotions I need in order to enjoy what it is I'm writing about.

So where is the happy medium? I'm not sure really. Today is my first blog in what seems like weeks. And the reason I'm doing it is because I know if I do it everyday it will get easier. So I'm getting back up on the horse.

Now, that being said there have been a few other developments. My muse, Daniel Craig, had the nerve to up and marry LOL. For me, the less I know about my muse's private life generally the better off I am. Because once I learn things about their private life it makes it more difficult for me to project creatively onto the vessel. It happened with Maurice Benard and Russell Crowe for me (both fantastic muses for me) I just don't want it to happen right now. LOL I know I'm being silly but hey, we all have our movie star crushes. And Craig and Ryan Reynolds happen to be mine right now.

Another thing, it's the first day of CampNaNoWriMo! A summer version of the November event. Let me take a moment to say, I have been having a problem writing. I have s series of shorts I wrote. A novella and a three part book I've edited. But it is an epic love story I want. So I'm writing for the fun of it this summer in order to see if I can get that. So far Daniel is my hero but it's a very real possibility Ryan Reynolds could end up there.

Don't forget July 22-24th I'm going to be at Fandom Fest in Louisville, KY at the Fern Valley Center! Hope to see you there!


M.J. Fifield said...

Daniel Craig and Ryan Reynolds are among my movie crushes too. I was incredibly hurt by Daniel's secret wedding. I thought we really had something going there. You know, in my head.

Good luck with CampNaNoWriMo!

Unknown said...

Keep your head up Amy. Sounds like you have some exciting things coming up. Stay focused on that. Maybe volunteer at a shelter, nursing home, boys and girls club. The experience is heart-lifting.


Larion aka Larriane Wills said...

I'm not bi-polar and I go through some of the same ups and downs, burn out, lose interest--ummm, maybe I am and just didn't know it. lol. joking aside, I have a grandson diagnoised as bi. reading your accounts make it easier for me to understand his 'moods' but i think we all strive for balance. hang in there sweetie, you're doing great.

Unknown said...

Hi Amy, I feel like you were looking into my head :)
I too want that feeling back, that spark of wonder when I write.
I wish you the best, maybe we will both find it this summer :)